I’ve asked myself that question a number of times. Why do I persist with self portraiture? With trying out new ideas, struggling to illustrate different concepts, learning new photography and editing skills that can make my images more poignant, communicative and interesting? Why do I often spend hours on getting the shot right, and scrutinize it, only to be left with that vague feeling that somehow it could be better – and then redo the whole thing? Why do I discard a whole evening – or several evenings – of photoshop work, shaking my head and telling myself ”oh no, you can do better than that!” – and start all over again?
I definitely could spend my free time in a more relaxing way. I could be more social. Go out more. Or watch more TV. Maybe read more books. Yes, I certainly could. But that would leave me frustrated. Stifled. Because I know there are a lot of images in this world that haven’t been created yet. And don’t ask me why (!) but I also know that some are still meant to be created by me.
Now, near the Winter Solstice, it is good to light candles. All the nice meanings of bringing light to the world can be beautiful. But perhaps we are concentrating on lighting the world because we don’t know how to light up our own lives. – Ralph Levy
Winter solstice came and went almost 2 weeks ago, an important event here in the northern countries. Finally, the days are getting longer, minute by minute. The darkness of the nordic winters was the inspiration for this image, and I find the above quote by Ralph Levy very poignant.
Your way is not my way
my focus is a different one
you may find it
To me, though,
it is the most beautiful one
since I found it myself
on that frozen, frigid sunday morning
walking through the secluded alley
giving me pointers
I bent down to tie my shoelace
Looked up, and there it was
there for me
to ignore and forget
my focus, now, is a different one